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Friday, October 22, 2010

ALONE

hey, it's me again..

do you know what i feel? it's ALONE
so freaky, but that's true..
surely, everybody hate for being ALONE..
me too~

6 years ago, i can't pass 7th grade and repeatedly that grade.. i lost my friends, but not all.. i must to started find a new friend, but i cant't.. i was too shy to greet someone there.. when break time came, i went to my friends at 8th grade.. i can't pass my time there, so cloudy.. started from that time, i became friend again with LYDIA INDAH NOTOHADIWIDJOJO, my best friend until now.
at 9th grade, i became alone again.. and i met INGRID VANIA MASPAITELA, who called VINO and we were getting closer.. we made a couple of dog tags until now i always wear this.. beside i met and be friend with her, i knew her boyfriend at that time, KEVIN MICHAEL KALOH called MONKEY or MONKICHI by me.. He is my BIG BROTHER now.. we're so close.. He join the karate club "amura" and will enter the competition at this end of october.. Good luck~

then, i have friends at senior high school.. they are Sylvia Nathasya Batubara, Orchidarina Pranatio, Yessi Apriani, Eva Nia, Clara, Agnesthasia Oktariana, and Clara Debora.. but there's some mistaken, i did some fault and made some of them angry.. and now, i'm alone again, at school of course.. although i have Monkichi besides me, he will never always with me everytime, right? He is a college student at Gunadharma University and i'm at Bunda Hati Kudus Senior High School.. The distance between our place is so long.. i must to try harder than before.. stand alone to get the best scores and get my parents proud of me.. should i give up?

friends are really important to me.. i had so many problems with my friends before.. i had being alone at 7th grade until 9th grade.. so, i must to adapted with this situation now.. it'll back to normal like 7th grade again.. i hope so :)

if by nishino kana

i've got a song from my BIG brother.. Great lyrics! it's "IF - NISHINO KANA"
 Kana Nishino- If single lyrics + translation
IF
moshi ano hi no ame ga
yande ita nara
kitto surechigatte ita dake kamo
itsumo toori no jikan ni
BASU ga kiteta nara
kimi towa deau koto ga nakattanda ne
moshimo sukoshi demo
ano shunkan ga zurete tara
futari wa chigatta unmei wo tadotte shimatteta

*kimi to onaji mirai wo
zutto issho ni mite itai
onaji hoshi wo onaji basho de
mitsumete iyou yo
kimi no egaku mirai ni
watashi wa iru no kana
onaji sora wo onaji omoi de
miagete itai yo*

kuchiguse ya shigusa mo
yoku nite kita futari
marude zutto mukashi kara shitteru mitai da ne
douji ni ME-RU shitari
onaji koto omottari
akai ito de hikiyoserareteru no kamo

guuzen wa saisho kara
mou kimatteta mitai ni
kasanatta futari wa unmei tte shinjite iru yo
kimi no egaku mirai ni
watashi wa iru no kana
onaji sora wo onaji omoi de
miagete itai yo

*repeat

tatoeba namida no hi mo
hare no hi mo futari de
onaji michi wo itsumademo
te wo tsunaide arukemasu youni

*repeat


TRANSLATION

If the rain had stopped
That day
I might surely have just walked past you
If the bus had arrived
At its usual time
I wouldn’t have met you

If that instant
Had been slightly different
We would have walked on separate paths of fate

*I always want to watch
The same future together with you
Let’s look at the same stars
At the same spot
I wonder if I am present
In the future you imagine for yourself
I want to look up to
The same sky with the same feelings
Our ways of talking and acting
Are really similar
It’s like if we have always known each other
Mailing each other at the same time
Thinking about the same things
We might have been bound together by a red thread

We fit so well together, like if
It was decided by chance right from the start
I believe we are fated to be together

I wonder if I am present
In the future you imagine for yourself
I want to look up to
The same sky with the same feelings

*repeat

So we may always walk
On the same path, hand in hand
Even on days filled with tears
And on sunny days

*repeat


open it, and hear that song.. thanks, Kev XD

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Asuwa Kuru Kara - Tohoshinki - DBSK - TVSQ

Hora mai orita yuki ga kono te ni tokete wa
Marude nanimo nakatta youni kieteku
Nee taisetsuna koto wa koware yasui kara
Bokutachi ni wa tsukamenai shizuka ni tadayou dake
Harukana harukana uchuu no katasumi
Koushite futari ga deaeta guuzen
Kiseki to yobitai kono kimochi wo kimi dake ni tsutaetai yo
Tada tsutaetai koto ga umaku ienakute
Mayoi nagara sagashi nagara ikiteta
Ima hitotsu no hikari wo mitsuketa kigashite
Oikakereba nigete yuku mirai wa ochitsukanai
Nandomo nandomo tachi tomari nagara
Egao to namida wo tsumikasanete yuku
Futari ga aruita kono michi nori sore dake ga tashikana shinjitsu
Ame furu toki ni wa kimi no kasani narou
Kaze fuku toki ni wa kimi no kabeni narou
Donna ni yami no fukai yoru demo kanarazu asu wa kuru kara
Haru ni saku hanaya natsu no sunahama
Aki no tasogareya fuyu no hidamari
Ikutsumo ikutsumo no kisetsu ga meguri
Kasane au inori wa jikuu sae koete yuku
Harukana (uchuu no katasumi ni ite)
Harukana (omoi wo haseru)
Kiseki to yobitai kono kimochi wo tada kimi dake ni tsutaetai yo
Nandomo nandomo tachi tomari nagara
Egao to namida wo tsumikasanete yuku
Futari ga aruita kono michi nori kiesaru koto wa nai kara
Ame furu toki ni wa kimi no kasani narou
Kaze fuku toki ni wa kimi no kabeni narou
Donna ni yami no fukai yoru demo kanarazu asu wa kuru kara
Kimi dake ni tsutaetai yo kanarazu asu wa kuru kara

--------------------------------------------------------

When the falling snow lands on my hand
It disappears without a trace
Because precious belongings are fragile
We cannot keep them forever, and it confuses us
Faraway, in a deep corner of the earth
Destiny brought us together
I want to express this miraculous feeling
With you
I'm unable to deliver a message to you
I've been living nervously, searching
Just searching for a light
As I begin to chase after it, I turn back, afraid of the outcome
I’ve stopped numerous times
Tears gather on my smiling face
This road that we shared
Is the only truth that remains
When the rains falls I will become your umbrella
When the wind blows I will become your wall
Even though the darkness overtakes the night
Tomorrow will come no matter what
The flowers that bloom in spring and the sandy shores of the summer
The fall sunrises and winter sunshine
As much as it is necessary, as much as needed, -
Courage lies where desires are present
Faraway, in a deep corner of the earth
I think of many memories
And want to call them my own
I want to deliver a message to you
I’ve stopped numerous times
Tears gather on my smiling face
This road that we shared
Will not disappear
When the rains falls I will become your umbrella
When the wind blows I will become your wall
Even though the darkness overtakes the night
Tomorrow will come no matter what
I want to deliver a message to you
Tomorrow will come no matter what

unknown

wow, long time no updates this blog.. too quite here..
hey, i have a friends.. i don't know, he like to check my blog or not..
but actually i like him for the first sight..
it started from our camp, then i knew him but he didn't know me..
i didn't notice it..
so far so good, i'm glad to knew him closely but not too close..
hmm, absolutely for the first time i liked his t-shirt and his car..
hhahahhahah..

but now, i know.. i'm not his type..
it's okay, i gave up already..
he introduced his childhood friend..
maybe he wanted his friend have a girlfriend..
what great a bestfriend, right? i hope i can be like that^^

farewell, i'm waiting for my birthday now..
061010 <-- can't wait for this day..
i have many wishes for my birthday this year..
but i have a hard wish to God
"God, please gimme a boyfriend.. I'm not desperate God, but i'm tired to being single for a long time. i miss the feeling about love when i'm falling in love.. And i hope this is my lastest boyfriend and he will be my husband in the future.. I hope you will grant my wish.. Amen!"
well, this is the end of my story today.. hope you will like it..

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Life is Like A Glass


i had watch a anime.. the title is "Code Geass" And i get a quote there.. i ithink i's a quite nice quote.. hopefully you'll like it^^


If happiness had a shape, what would it be?
Happiness just like a glass
Because, it can’t be notice normally, but it’s still exists
The evidence is that if you change the angle, the angle that you look at it from
Glass will be shining
You’ll be expressing your existence as much as anything else
Even it’s contaminated by fake memories
It’ll still reveal the transparent colors of the glass
Always forever. Forever


a quite nice quote, right? =D

Sunday, April 4, 2010

thinking around about study and love.. hmm??

well, it's april.. hmm i just have one month to study and full my remedial tests..
My God, i can't make it this time.. how can I do??

beside of this problem, i'm just thinking around about LOVE (euuh ~)
zzz, too bad! now, i must to thinking about my school subject and my head always think about LOVE ??? heegh, NO TIME, CHICCA! NO Time!

i'm nor sure if i think of LOVE it's my feeling to 'someone special in my life now' but i think it's about my self, my trueself.. I wanna have a boyfriend, i miss to get it feeling.. i want to feel it again, but WHO???  just speaking (really?! i don't think so)

huh! can anyone answer it? i think not, because it's all about my self then just my self too to need to answer it

Saturday, March 20, 2010

SAD ENDING

today i finished watch the japanese animation serial TV from the DVD.. i borrowed that from my friend, Florence Griffith.. the title of the serial is KUROSHITSUJI.. one of the main character, Ciel Phantomhive.. I like this character.. He has a butler named, Sebastian Michaels.. I watched it from yesterday and i finished it today..
The end of the stories is...........
CIEL WILL DEAD AND THE MURDER WAS SEBASTIAN
ciel panthomhive    Sebastian - ciel
oh nooooo~ why ciel? how pathetic

but, i heard from my friend, there is season 2 of this serial.. I hope ciel will be alive.. hope so~ but, i like this anime.. very like ciel.. Nice anime! hohoho.. thank you florence about the DVD.. hahaha

Friday, March 19, 2010

hey, did ya know.. today i've got block 2 account person from my list on facebook..
they're nickname are my 2nd ex and Mrs. Lily..
well, i'm sorry guys.. i'm nor too comfort if you were being friend with me on facebook.. it's all about my privacy.. i don't like you two.. You had make me feel afraid.. urgh maybe i'm too over protective for my self..but i want to
MAKE MY LIFE BEING CONFIDENT
from now on, we just only a aquitance.. sorry mrs. Lily and my 2nd ex

mencoba menulis yang baru lagi..


waw, lama tak mencoba posting lagi.. hahaha...
weegh, ngga keren nih pake indo.. swt dh..

okay, from now on i'll use english.. practise my english now.. yippie!


hmm, i wanna tell about my brother.. his name is Lewi Adriel, he is my little brother.
i just have one brother and no sister.. i'm the oldest.. hohohoho..
i have a photo of him, he looks like a stranger boy.. but truly, that is my brother. hahaha..

end of my blog now.. thank you!