ALONE

hey, it's me again..

do you know what i feel? it's ALONE
so freaky, but that's true..
surely, everybody hate for being ALONE..
me too~

6 years ago, i can't pass 7th grade and repeatedly that grade.. i lost my friends, but not all.. i must to started find a new friend, but i cant't.. i was too shy to greet someone there.. when break time came, i went to my friends at 8th grade.. i can't pass my time there, so cloudy.. started from that time, i became friend again with LYDIA INDAH NOTOHADIWIDJOJO, my best friend until now.
at 9th grade, i became alone again.. and i met INGRID VANIA MASPAITELA, who called VINO and we were getting closer.. we made a couple of dog tags until now i always wear this.. beside i met and be friend with her, i knew her boyfriend at that time, KEVIN MICHAEL KALOH called MONKEY or MONKICHI by me.. He is my BIG BROTHER now.. we're so close.. He join the karate club "amura" and will enter the competition at this end of october.. Good luck~

then, i have friends at senior high school.. they are Sylvia Nathasya Batubara, Orchidarina Pranatio, Yessi Apriani, Eva Nia, Clara, Agnesthasia Oktariana, and Clara Debora.. but there's some mistaken, i did some fault and made some of them angry.. and now, i'm alone again, at school of course.. although i have Monkichi besides me, he will never always with me everytime, right? He is a college student at Gunadharma University and i'm at Bunda Hati Kudus Senior High School.. The distance between our place is so long.. i must to try harder than before.. stand alone to get the best scores and get my parents proud of me.. should i give up?

friends are really important to me.. i had so many problems with my friends before.. i had being alone at 7th grade until 9th grade.. so, i must to adapted with this situation now.. it'll back to normal like 7th grade again.. i hope so :)

if by nishino kana

i've got a song from my BIG brother.. Great lyrics! it's "IF - NISHINO KANA"

 Kana Nishino- If single lyrics + translation

IF

moshi ano hi no ame ga

yande ita nara

kitto surechigatte ita dake kamo

itsumo toori no jikan ni

BASU ga kiteta nara

kimi towa deau koto ga nakattanda ne

moshimo sukoshi demo

ano shunkan ga zurete tara

futari wa chigatta unmei wo tadotte shimatteta

*kimi to onaji mirai wo

zutto issho ni mite itai

onaji hoshi wo onaji basho de

mitsumete iyou yo
kimi no egaku mirai ni

watashi wa iru no kana

onaji sora wo onaji omoi de

miagete itai yo*

kuchiguse ya shigusa mo

yoku nite kita futari

marude zutto mukashi kara shitteru mitai da ne

douji ni ME-RU shitari

onaji koto omottari

akai ito de hikiyoserareteru no kamo

guuzen wa saisho kara

mou kimatteta mitai ni

kasanatta futari wa unmei tte shinjite iru yo

kimi no egaku mirai ni

watashi wa iru no kana

onaji sora wo onaji omoi de

miagete itai yo

*repeat

tatoeba namida no hi mo

hare no hi mo futari de

onaji michi wo itsumademo

te wo tsunaide arukemasu youni

*repeat

TRANSLATION

If the rain had stopped

That day

I might surely have just walked past you

If the bus had arrived

At its usual time

I wouldn’t have met you

If that instant

Had been slightly different

We would have walked on separate paths of fate

*I always want to watch

The same future together with you

Let’s look at the same stars

At the same spot

I wonder if I am present

In the future you imagine for yourself

I want to look up to

The same sky with the same feelings

Our ways of talking and acting

Are really similar

It’s like if we have always known each other

Mailing each other at the same time

Thinking about the same things

We might have been bound together by a red thread

We fit so well together, like if

It was decided by chance right from the start

I believe we are fated to be together

I wonder if I am present

In the future you imagine for yourself

I want to look up to

The same sky with the same feelings

*repeat

So we may always walk

On the same path, hand in hand

Even on days filled with tears

And on sunny days

*repeat

open it, and hear that song.. thanks, Kev XD