Sunday, March 11, 2012

crazy little thing called "hurt"

me and Kevin Michael was broke up on March 3rd 2012
you know, it's hurt since then.. can i call him back with "sayang" or "nyetto" or something like that?
his promise, was it a lie?a tissue paper with his handwriting on it, will he prove his promise? a kiss on my stomach as a promise of us to be together later, will he prove it? Or it was just for fooling around?

every night, i can't stop the tears of it.
Kevin Michael, the person who i know is a person who can keep his word, until now, i just can believe it. although he is an absent-minded person, he always can keep his word in the other side of his memories.
but, it's still hurt even i know what's the reason. i don't want to forget you, i don't want to be separate from you. please, don't get any girls after me, be with me.
My my~ i love him with all of my heart, i have a faith if he feels the way i feel. but when i remember our status, there's no guarantee if he will find a new one after me, a better person than me. there's no guarantee that we would make up our relationship in the future.
Kamisama, can i have faith on him? or should i give up on it?

Michael Fernando (Mike), a close friend of mine, said that all i need is just to believe him and try my best to get him back. but when i think there's no guarantee of it, i just think all of it was just a bullshit.
tell me, God, what should i do? should i give up or i try my best?

Kamisama, all i can do is just to pray, cry, hope, also try, right?


  1. Weiz...ternyata lu juga punya blog, Chic? Hehehe...

    Gua ikut sedih baca tulisan lu yg di atas, sabar ya, yg namanya putus memang ga enak. Tapi itulah hidup.

    The hardest part of life is having to let go of your fears, and facing the facts: you can't always get what you want, life isn't a box of chocolates, and your favorite TV series will always have a crappy ending.

    Semoga suatu hari lu bisa nemuin seseorang yg bener2 meant to be buat lu...semangattt ;p

    1. iya ko, punya.. ehehehe jarang di-update aja, males kalo loadingnya suka lama gitu.. ehehehhe.. makasih ko.. tapi sekarang jadi rada trauma ini ahahhaha